by goodnatured » Thu Jan 10, 2008 01:08 am
I am going away for a week of training, I am not looking forward to it at all, but all the staff has to go through it, I just happen to be first, I want to get it out of the way. So, I have to figure out a way to be polite while these people that don't do my job tell me how to do my job better.
I will be taking my zoloft with me, over the last few years when I sit for a while in a classroom environment, my mind goes places that I wish it would not. I honestly can not control this crap, finally went to may doctor and got some medication.
Eventually it started happening on a daily basis at work, pretty wild stuff, I would have to get away from the scene to get it out of my head.
It is strange because it is never the same. Sometimes I get angry, sometimes just overly, overly thrilled, it is ridiculous, doctor said that I was bipolar, he tested me and I got a 9 out of 14, he says it is pretty severe. I have been okay for quite awhile now, but I will tell you the first time it happened it was a pretty crazy experience.
Has anyone dealt with anyone with bipolarism? I have always considered myself a pretty stable person, but this crap just takes control of my mind and goes places that are totally innappropriate at times.
I will be taking my zoloft with me, over the last few years when I sit for a while in a classroom environment, my mind goes places that I wish it would not. I honestly can not control this crap, finally went to may doctor and got some medication.
Eventually it started happening on a daily basis at work, pretty wild stuff, I would have to get away from the scene to get it out of my head.
It is strange because it is never the same. Sometimes I get angry, sometimes just overly, overly thrilled, it is ridiculous, doctor said that I was bipolar, he tested me and I got a 9 out of 14, he says it is pretty severe. I have been okay for quite awhile now, but I will tell you the first time it happened it was a pretty crazy experience.
Has anyone dealt with anyone with bipolarism? I have always considered myself a pretty stable person, but this crap just takes control of my mind and goes places that are totally innappropriate at times.
Posted: Tue Jan 15, 2008 01:28 am Post Subject:
LOL, Lori, that is what the zoloft makes me feel like, my doctor prescribed me 50 mg, I break them in half.
He put me on this medication one time, it was zyprexa, it was only 10 mg, I would literally pass out on it, I quit taking it, I could not take care of my kid and take the stuff.
I do okay, I know when my moods start swinging to go back on the medication, I have a few friends at work that will call it to my attention in a nice way too, LOL. They know to be nice about it, LOL.
I used to think that it was just normal, but it actually got so bad at one point that I had to start leaving work because of it, I was getting way to inappropriate, my mood swings could go either way.
I have always been a pretty serious person, so I guess when I feel like I am skipping through the tulips I have lost a sense of myself, hate to feel that way too. I came home from work one day and my husband said, you quit taking your meds didn't you, I about went through the roof because I was thinking that the only way people could stand being around me was if I was medicated, of course that is all part of it.
Appreciate your input Lori, feels good to conversate with someone who knows what I am talking about. thanks
Posted: Tue Jan 15, 2008 12:52 pm Post Subject:
You're very blessed to have a husband and people at work that can bring this to your attention with love, and that you can take it (generally! ha) the way it is intended (when you need a pill! haha )....send me some of the happy juice! ha ha
Posted: Tue Jan 15, 2008 04:01 pm Post Subject:
I think it is great that you have a support system in place.
Posted: Wed Jan 16, 2008 04:08 pm Post Subject:
They have been wonderful and know that if I snap and chew their heads off, not to take it personally. LOL, they know when it is going to hit a head. I guess I smell different, LOL, just kidding.
It is obvious when the train is about to derail.
Posted: Sun Jan 20, 2008 08:08 pm Post Subject:
Goodnatured, I have suspected for years from what my hubby says, that he is also bipolar, My daughter was diagnosed with it also.She was on medication and therapy but her therapist moved and she quit the medication and therapy.She did not want a differnt therapist.I can't help but beieve that They diagnose bipolar to often ,like ADHD. My hubby has bad mood swings. Like a child having temper tantrums when they are hunger and moody. He has something wrong ,he blames it on diabetes till he decided he didn't have it and quit taking those pills for it. Maybe he just has a violent temper and balmes it on a medical condition.
Posted: Sun Jan 20, 2008 08:41 pm Post Subject:
I think that it depends on the person hummingbird, diabetes can cause all kinds of problems. If it affecting the kidneys, the kidneys definately can affect a persons mental state. I know this for sure.
Maybe he needs the medication to mello out his mood, nothing wrong with that, makes him easier to live with right? LOL.
How old was your daughter when she was diagnosed with the bipolar condition? Is she ok now that she is off the medication. It is scary when they start putting psychotropic drugs into children. Is she doing good now while she is off the medication and the counseling?
Posted: Sun Jan 20, 2008 08:50 pm Post Subject:
Goodnatured,That does sound like my hubby.He has been that way as long as I have known him.It gets very hard some times to deal with. But he would never go and get a diagnosis.He doesn't beleiev in medications for the most part, He will suffer from a headache before taking anyhting.Not me! he is calm and good humored one minute ,the next he will jump down your throat.It is so hard to deal with,I think he someone diagnosed him with it .I could deal better with it.Thats better than thinking he is just plain old mean.I end up feeling ,stupid and miserable.
Posted: Sun Jan 20, 2008 08:54 pm Post Subject:
hey hummingbird, that was me---------erb---- that posted the reply not goodnatured, lol
You should not feel stupid and miserable, he should go get some medication and mello out some, it would do him good too. It is not good for your blood pressure or your heart to be this way. Anger affects your whole body.
Posted: Sun Jan 20, 2008 09:10 pm Post Subject:
Erb,I was referring to Goodnatured 's remark about chewing people's head off. THAT sounds like my hubby. My daughter was 16. She acts a lot like her dad .Bad moods and all. The way i am thinking they diagnose Bi-polar is they ask a bunch of questions.So I'm wondering who's to say a person could not know the symptoms and make a therapist or Dr think they have it. My daughter likes lots of attention ,she enjoys being in the lime light.I always thought she just made the therapist think she was bi-polar .but maybe not . She is not on any medication now.I am like you .i hate to see young people on these medicine.She was on pills for depression a few time. I never thought she could spend time laughing with friends and talking on the phone for hours with her friends and say she was depressed. I have been depress before and never took medication or go to a doctor. I could not do the things she does when she is depressed.I just want to crawl into a hole and stay there.
Posted: Mon Jan 21, 2008 12:18 am Post Subject:
the unability to focus doesnt mean your bipolar. i suffer depression and i have lack of concentration and im not bipolar. i dont remember stuff and sometimes i speak out before i know im doing it im just in fast gear all the time, they tell me its anxiety and panic disorder but sometimes im fine. i go in and out of sad moods and when im in one nothing can pull me out. ive lost a lot in life i contribute the most of it to that, but then i dont know, i function normal at work and in the public just not at home i just set and reherse my life over and over trying to figure what or where i went wrong. what do you call all this.
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